Woopsy Daisy

So I have decided that to journal is to do something amazing for yourself! But, I have also decided that carrying a book around with me is quite difficult; seeing that I don't journal anything secret, why not just blog! It's a much more interesting word than journal. Blog. Sounds pretty nice!

Well, it is Christmas time. The city is lit up with lights and cheer, the mall - full of folks spending their money in full. Whilst I watch from the sideline people enjoying spending their money to make others smile. I wonder how I have made it thus far through my life? The things I have gone through have been absolutely ridiculous. I am only 20 years old yes, but I feel that when I look into my past I am seeing such a separate life that I live now. It is because I am a different person. I have been redeemed by the Redeemer. I have been set free by the Deliverer. I have been healed by the Healer. I have been protected by the Protector. I have been surrounded by love by Love, himself. This time of year is when people are the happiest and I wonder why. Yes, Christmas is here but why is it so happy? Then, for others, it is the most dreaded, feared time of the year. How can one day effect us in such a deep, inner way? Because it's not just a day. It is the day. The day that Jesus was born, the day our Deliverer came. That was the day the whole world changed. It's so cliche, but yet so true. I have caught myself forgetting the true reason of this season but I have been reminded by one line from a song: "I'll hold you in the beginning, You will hold me in the end". Mary, the mother of Jesus, (in the song) said this to her son, Jesus. It had such an effect on me. He will hold us in the end and He is holding us now. And that is how I have made it thus far. That is how I am His child today. Because He came and now I can be saved. This isn't anything deep or profound. Just me, blogging. :) Putting my thoughts to words.

I am just so thankful...my family is incredible. Yes, we have our problems but who doesn't? I shouldn't be so negative about them. It isn't a just a family. It is a family that has literally been grafted together by God. No more complaining! It is day 3 of my new outlook on life. I am changing how some things about myself that I don't like and let me tell ya, it is ridiculously hard! I made it to day 13 but on Saturday I had a little blow out! Woopsy Daisy! So, Sunday was day 1...again. But that's the cool thing: with God, you have unlimited "Day 1's" =)

"When we hold back on life, life holds back on us." ~Mary Manin Boggs