another day at the office...

Cody is on vacation. Nathan is in Texas. Trainers are not in today. Amber is in her office highlighting things most likely, or possibly writing an email to someone who isn't cooperating. Danielle is listening very intently (and finding humor in) the voicemails our clients have left. Heidi is probably responding to an email and commenting on how much she likes that individual. Chad is listening to music and working (I don't really know what he does in his office). I am at my desk (that is conveniently located in the smack dab center of the room). Listening to "Come To Me" by Aaron Shust. We had a luncheon at Claim Jumper with those of us who decided to come in today. I have my caramel pumpkin candle burning, sipping on my cappuccino I made from a box and pondering...

Why do people have to make stuff up? Do they think it will make them a better person by tearing down others? Because, really, it's not a nice thing to do. Why do people have to change? Why can't we all just reach a stage in a friendship and keep it there? Why do you have to move forward or end things? Why does there need to be anything different from what we had? Why do I let "you" bother me so much? Why do I let "you" effect the sleep I get at night or the food I eat? I ate a Krispy Kreme for breakfast. I haven't eaten one of those in at least 5 years but today (because of "you") I had a KK.

This is what is going through my mind today. I hate how I let people, circumstances and situations dictate my day-to-day life. I hate that. But, I am also pondering...

Why did He come to this earth? He could have just stayed up There and intervened from there. But, no. He came. It was a big change for Him. Here I am complaining about my life and the changes happening but if it wasn't for the change that He made I wouldn't even be here today. Wow... talk about a change of perspective about change.

"I want to fall for you but I'm not sure you will catch me." -Pam Rox